Friday, October 14, 2005

IF YOU'RE NOT A DYLAN FAN, YOU MIGHT WANT TO SKIP TO THE NEXT BUSH BASHING PIECE. BUT THIS IS REALLY AMAZING

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Mike Watt sent me this this morning and I've been kind of floored by it all day. Dylan's my favorite songwriter of all time. Last couple weeks I've been more into him than usual because I'm helping a 16 year old musician in the 'hood to grok Dylan's music. I'll get him to read this but you should too-- unless you just are into all Bush bashin' all the time. If you saw the amazing two nights of Dylan TV on PBS a couple weeks ago you've got some instant context.

The National Emergency Civil Liberties Committee (NECLC), founded in
1951 and known for many years simply as the Emergency Civil Liberties
Committee (ECLC), annually held a Bill of Rights Dinner which
gathered together members and friends of the organization and
provided a setting for the presentation of the group's Tom Paine
Award, given once yearly since 1958 in recognition of distinguished
service in the fight for civil liberty. The recipient of the 1963
award was singer/songwriter Bob Dylan who accepted the award on
December 13 at the Dinner in New York, which also featured noted
author James Baldwin.

What follows here is a most remarkable set of three documents: first,
Bob Dylan's extemporaneous speech, probably typed out later from an
audio tape, then an eloquent letter in defense of Dylan and of youth
itself from Corliss Lamont, who was then Chairman of the ECLC, and
finally, a most beautiful and poetic explanation by Dylan himself
analyzing and expressing his tumult of feelings on the occasion. Read
on.....


TRANSCRIPT OF BOB DYLAN'S REMARKS AT THE BILL OF RIGHTS DINNER
at the Americana Hotel on 12/13/63

I haven't got any guitar, I can talk though. I want to thank you for
the Tom Paine award in behalf everybody that went down to Cuba. First
of all because they're all young and it's took me a long time to get
young and now I consider myself young. And I'm proud of it. I'm proud
that I'm young. And I only wish that all you people who are sitting
out here today or tonight weren't here and I could see all kinds of
faces with hair on their head - and everything like that, everything
leading to youngness, celebrating the anniversary when we overthrew
the House Un-American Activities just yesterday, - Because you people
should be at the beach. You should be out there and you should be
swimming and you should be just relaxing in the time you have to
relax. (Laughter) It is not an old peoples' world. It is not an old
peoples' world. It has nothing to do with old people. Old people when
their hair grows out, they should go out. (Laughter) And I look down
to see the people that are governing me and making my rules - and
they haven't got any hair on their head - I get very uptight about
it. (Laughter)

And they talk about Negroes, and they talk about black and white. And
they talk about colors of red and blue and yellow. Man, I just don't
see any colors at all when I look out. I don't see any colors at all
and if people have taught through the years to look at colors - I've
read history books, I've never seen one history book that tells how
anybody feels. I've found facts about our history, I've found out
what people know about what goes on but I never found anything about
anybody feels about anything happens. It's all just plain facts. And
it don't help me one little bit to look back.

I wish sometimes I could have come in here in the 1930's like my
first idol - used to have an idol, Woody Guthrie, who came in the
1930's (Applause). But it has sure changed in the time Woody's been
here and the time I've been here. It's not that easy any more. People
seem to have more fears.

I get different presents from people that I play for and they bring
presents to me backstage - very weird, weird presents - presents that
I couldn't buy. They buy - they bring me presents that - I've got
George Lincoln Rockwell's tie clip that somebody robbed for me.
(Laughter) I have General Walker's car trunk keys - keys to his trunk
that somebody robbed for me. Now these are my presents. I have
fallout shelter signs that people robbed for me from Philadelphia and
these are the little signs. There's no black and white, left and
right to me anymore; there's only up and down and down is very close
to the ground. And I'm trying to go up without thinking about
anything trivial such as politics. They has got nothing to do with
it. I'm thinking about the general people and when they get hurt.

I want to accept this award, the Tom Paine Award, from the Emergency
Civil Liberties Committee. I want to accept it in my name but I'm not
really accepting it in my name and I'm not accepting it in any kind
of group's name, any Negro group or any other kind of group. There
are Negroes - I was on the march on Washington up on the platform and
I looked around at all the Negroes there and I didn't see any Negroes
that looked like none of my friends. My friends don't wear suits. My
friends don't have to wear suits. My friends don't have to wear any
kind of thing to prove that they're respectable Negroes. My friends
are my friends, and they're kind, gentle people if they're my
friends. And I'm not going to try to push nothing over. So, I accept
this reward - not reward, (Laughter) award in behalf of Phillip Luce
who led the group to Cuba which all people should go down to Cuba. I
don't see why anybody can't go to Cuba. I don't see what's going to
hurt by going any place. I don't know what's going to hurt anybody's
eyes to see anything. On the other hand, Phillip is a friend of mine
who went to Cuba. I'll stand up and to get uncompromisable about it,
which I have to be to be honest, I just got to be, as I got to admit
that the man who shot President Kennedy, Lee Oswald, I don't know
exactly where --what he thought he was doing, but I got to admit
honestly that I too - I saw some of myself in him. I don't think it
would have gone - I don't think it could go that far. But I got to
stand up and say I saw things that he felt, in me - not to go that
far and shoot. (Boos and hisses) You can boo but booing's got nothing
to do with it. It's a - I just a - I've got to tell you, man, it's
Bill of Rights is free speech and I just want to admit that I accept
this Tom Paine Award in behalf of James Forman of the Students
Non-Violent Coordinating Committee and on behalf of the people who
went to Cuba. (Boos and Applause)





LETTER FROM CORLISS LAMONT TO ATTENDEES OF THE DINNER

The review referred to by Mr. Lamont in this letter was written by
Robert Shelton and appeared in The New York Times of October 28,
1963. It was a review of a solo concert given by Bob Dylan at
Carnegie Hall.

( D-R-A-F-T )

December 19, 1963

Dear Friend:

Many of our friends disapproved our choice of Bob Dylan for the Tom
Paine award. Without defending his acceptance speech, I would like to
tell you why we feel he deserved the award. Bob Dylan has sent us a
message which more clearly conveys his feelings. It is enclosed and I
urge you to read it carefully.

E.C.L.C. defends the right of all Americans to advocate their
beliefs. This is not confined to ideology or political groups. It
should certainly be extended to our own youth, who according to many
experts are becoming increasingly alienated and lost in our present
society.

Whether we approve or not, Bob Dylan has become the idol of the
progressive youngsters of today, regardless of their political
factions. He is speaking to them in terms of protest that they
understand and applaud. (see the enclosed review from The New York
Times).

E.C.L.C. feels that it is urgent to recognize the protest of youth
today and to help make it understood by the older generation. Walt
Whitman and Woody Guthrie, the culture antecedents of Bob Dylan, were
not appreciated by their society until they were very old. We think
that it would be better to make the effort now to comprehend what Bob
Dylan is saying to and for the youth. It is true that he is not as
respectable as Lord Russell, the winner of last year's award, but
neither was Tom Paine, and our history is too full of disregard for
important messages which were unrespectable at the time.

The annual celebration of Bill of Rights Day is not just a
fund-raising affair - although we hope that our friends will help us
carry on our work - it is also an opportunity for us to present to
our supporters the problems of our democracy which in their daily
lives they are apt to over-look.

This year over 1400 people were at the largest civil liberties dinner
on record. We appreciate the understanding and support we received
from many of those present and we hope that others will gain from the
reading of the enclosed message by Bob Dylan an understanding which
his speech did not convey.

Yours sincerely,

Corliss Lamont





A MESSAGE

from Bob Dylan

(Sent to the Emergency Civil Liberties Committee after he received
the Tom Paine Award at the Bill of Rights dinner on December 13,
1963.)

to anybody it may concern...
clark?
mairi?
phillip?
edith?
mr lamont?
countless faces I do not know
an all fighters for good things that I can not see

when I speak of bald heads, I mean bald minds
when I speak of the seashore, I mean the restin shore
I dont know why I mentioned either of them

my life runs in a series of moods
in private an in personal ways, sometimes,
I, myself, can change the mood I'm in t the
mood I'd like t be in. when I walked thru the
doors of the americana hotel, I needed to change
my mood... for reasons inside myself.

I am a restless soul
hungry
perhaps wretched

it is hard to hear someone you dont know, say
"this is what he meant t say" about something
you just said

for no one can say what I meant t say
absolutely no one
at times I even cant
that was one of those times

my life is lived out daily in the places I feel
most confortable in. these places are places where
I am unknown an unstared at. I perform rarely, an
when I do, there is a constant commotion burnin
at my body an at my mind because of the attention
aimed at me. instincts fight my emotions an fears
fight my instincts...

I do not claim t be smart by the standards set up
I dont even claim to be normal by the standards
set up
an I do not claim to know any kind of truth

but like an artist who puts his painting (after
he's painted it) in front of thousands of unknown
eyes, I also put my song there that way
(after I've made it)
it is as easy an as simple as that

I can not speak. I can not talk
I can only write an I can only sing
perhaps I should've sung a song
but that wouldn't a been right either
for I was given an award not to sing
but rather on what I have sung

no what I should've said was
"thank you very much ladies an gentlemen"
yes that is what I should've said
but unfortunatly... I didn't
an I didn't because I did not know

I thought something else was expected of me
other than just sayin "thank you"
an I did not know what it was
it is a fierce heavy feeling
thinkin something is expected of you
but you dont know what exactly it is...
it brings forth a wierd form of guilt

I should've remembered
"I am BOB DYLAN an I dont have t speak
I dont have t say nothin if I dont wanna"
but
I didn't remember

I constantly asked myself while eatin supper
"what should I say? what should I tell 'm?
everybody else is gonna tell 'm something"
but I could not answer myself
I even asked someone who was sittin nex t me
an he couldn't tell me neither. my mind blew
up an needless t say I had t get it back in its
rightful shape (whatever that might be) an so
I escaped from the big room... only t hear my
name being shouted an the words "git in here
git in here" overlappin with the findin of my
hand being pulled across hundreds of tables
with the lights turned on strong... guidin me
back t where I tried t escape from
"what should I say? what should I say?"
over an over again
oh God, I'd a given anything not t be there
"shut the lights off at least"
people were coughin an my head was poundin
an the sounds of mumble jumble sank deep in
my skull from all sides of the room
until I tore everything loose from my mind
an said "just be honest, dylan, just be honest"

an so I found myself in front of the plank
like I found myself once in the path of a car
an I jumped...
jumped with all my bloody might
just tryin t get out a the way
but first screamin one last song

when I spoke of Lee Oswald, I was speakin of the times
I was not speakin of his deed if it was his deed.
the deed speaks for itself
but I am sick
so sick
at hearin "we all share the blame" for every
church bombing, gun battle, mine disaster,
poverty explosion, an president killing that
comes about.
it is so easy t say "we" an bow our heads together
I must say "I" alone an bow my head alone
for it is I alone who is livin my life
I have beloved companions but they do not
eat nor sleep for me
an even they must say "I"
yes if there's violence in the times then
there must be violence in me
I am not a perfect mute.
I hear the thunder an I cant avoid hearin it
once this is straight between us, it's then an
only then that we can say "we" an really mean
it... an go on from there t do something about
it

When I spoke of Negroes
I was speakin of my Negro friends
from harlem
an Jackson
selma an birmingham
atlanta pittsburg, an all points east
west, north, south an wherever else they
might happen t be.
in rat filled rooms
an dirt land farms
schools, dimestores, factories
pool halls an street corners
the ones that dont own ties
but know proudly they dont have to
not one little bit
they dont have t be like they naturally aint
t get what they naturally own no more 'n anybody
else does
it only gets things complicated
an leads people into thinkin the wrong things
black skin is black skin
It cant be covered by clothes an made t seem
acceptable, well liked an respectable...
t teach that or t think that just tends the
flames of another monster myth...
it is naked black skin an nothin else
if a Negro has t wear a tie t be a Negro
then I must cut off all ties with who he has
t do it for.
I do not know why I wanted t say this that
nite.
perhaps it was just one of the many things
in my mind
born from the confusion of my times

when I spoke about the people that went t Cuba
I was speakin of the free right t travel
I am not afraid t see things
I challenge seein things
I am insulted t the depths of my soul
when someone I dont know commands that I
cant see this an gives me mysterious reasons
why I'll get hurt if I do see it... tellin me
at the same time about goodness an badness in
people that again I dont know...
I've been told about people all my life
about niggers, kikes, wops, bohunks, spicks, chinks,
an I been told how they eat, dress, walk, talk,
steal, rob, an kill but nobody tells me how any
of 'm feels... nobody tells me how any of 'm cries
or laughs or kisses. I'm fed up with most newspapers,
radios, tv an movies an the like t tell me. I want
now t see an know for myself...
an I accepted that award for all others like me
who want t see for themselves... an who dont want
that God-given right taken away
stolen away
or snuck out from beneath them
yes a travel ban in the south would protect
Americans more, I'm sure, than the one t Cuba
but in all honesty I would want t crash that
one too
do you understand?
do you really understand?
I mean I want t see. I want t see all I can
everyplace there is t see it
my life carries eyes
an they're there for one reason
the reason t see thru them

my country is the Minnesota-North Dakota territory
that's where I was born an learned how t walk an
it's where I was raised an went t school... my
youth was spent wildly among the snowy hills an
sky blue lakes, willow fields an abandoned open
pit mines. contrary t rumors, I am very proud of
where I'm from an also of the many blood streams that
run in my roots. but I would not be doing what
I'm doing today if I hadn't come t New York. I was
given my direction from new york. I was fed in
new york. I was beaten down by new york an I was
picked up by new york. I was made t keep going on
by new york. I'm speakin now of the people I've met
who were strugglin for their lives an other peoples'
lives in the thirties an forties an the fifties
an I look t their times
I reach out t their times
an, in a sense, am jealous of their times
t think I have no use for "old" people is a betrayin thought
those that know me know otherwise
those that dont, probably're baffled
like a friend of mine, jack elliott, who says he
was reborn in Oklahoma, I say I was reborn in
New York...
there is no age limit stuck on it
an no one is more conscious of it than I

yes it is a fierce feeling, knowin something you
dont know about's expected of you. but it's worse
if you blindly try t follow with explodin words
(for that's all they can do is explode)
an the explodin words're misunderstood
I've heard I was misunderstood

I do not apologize for myself nor my fears
I do not apologize for any statement which led
some t believe "oh my God! I think he's the one
that really shot the president"

I am a writer an a singer of the words I write
I am no speaker nor any politician
an my songs speak for me because I write them
in the confinement of my own mind an have t cope
with no one except my own self. I dont have t face
anyone with them until long after they're done

no I do not apologize for being me nor any part of me

but I can return what is rightfully yours at any
given time. I have stared at it for a long while
now. it is a beautiful award. there is a kindness
t Mr Paine's face an there is almost a sadness in
his smile. his trials show thru his eyes. I know
really not much about him but somehow I would like
t sing for him. there is a gentleness t his way.
yes thru all my flounderin wildness, I am, when it
comes down to it, very proud that you have given this
t me. I would hang it high, an let my friends see in
it what I see, but I also would give it back if
you wish. There is no sense in keepin it if you've
made a mistake in givin it. for it means more'n any
store bought thing an it'd only be cheatin t keep it

also I did not know that the dinner was a donation
dinner. I did not know you were gonna ask anyone
for money. an I understand you lost money on the
masterful way I expressed myself... then I am in debt t you
not a money debt but rather a moral debt
if you'd a sold me something, then it'd be a money debt
but you sold nothin, so it is a moral debt
an moral debts're worse 'n money debts
for they have t be paid back in whatever is missin
an in this case, it's money

please send me my bill
an I shall pay it
no matter what the sum
I have a hatred of debts an want t be even in
the best way I can
you needn't think about this, for money means
very little t me

so then

I'll return once again t the road

I cant tell you why other people write, but I
write in order to keep from going insane.
my head, I expect'd turn inside out if my hands
were t leave me.

but I hardly ever talk about why I write. an I
scarcely ever think about it. the thought of it is
too alarmin

an I never ever talk about why I speak
but that's because I never do it. this is the
first time I am talkin about it... an I pray
the last
the thought of doing it again is too scary

ha! it's a scary world
but only once in a while huh?

I love you all up there an the ones I dont love,
it's only because I do not know them an have not
seen them... God it's so hard hatin. it's so
tiresome... an after hatin something to death,
it's never worth the bother an trouble

out! out! brief candle
life's but an open window
an I must jump back thru it now

see yuh
respectfully an unrespectfully

(sgd) bob dylan

3 Comments:

At 1:01 PM, Blogger Timcanhear said...

His latest autobiography, Bob Dylan Chronicles, vol 1, celebrates those who's music he enjoyed the most. His stories are void of pomp. You feel like you're there and witnessing it all with him. It's a good ride.

 
At 6:55 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have to say I read this article a few days ago. And reading Dylan's unprepared un-edited thoughts gave me more insight into Dylan as a person and Dylan as a writer than any book or biography I've ever read on him.

 
At 5:01 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It should be noted that the material presented in this blog post was taken directly from the following page on the Corliss Lamont Website.

Bob Dylan and the NECLC

I know this because I'm the Webmaster for the site and I manually keyed in much of the text, from original documents belonging to the estate of the late Dr. Corliss Lamont, back in 2000 when I posted the page to the site.

This material was also used, with permission, in Martin Scorsese's 2005 PBS documentary, No Direction Home: Bob Dylan, which was released on DVD by Paramount Pictures on September 20, 2005.

Frank.

 

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